I am a much better mom/wife/human being when I’m running on a regular basis. From a mental health standpoint, 3o minutes of running 5 times a week is the best thing I can do for myself. 30 minutes at whatever speed my body feels is right that day seems to “flip the switch” in my head. When I’m not getting that, I’m a lot less patient, I’m a little bit angry at the world, and stress affects me more.
For the last year and a half, I’ve had to broaden my exercise routine. I’m happiest when I’m running, but with some extra time and effort, yoga, my bike and the gym can keep me going. It’s not the same, but it takes the edge off. Running is my anti-depressant. Other exercise is like taking a slightly too low dose.
I ran on Monday. 3 miles in 29 minutes. It felt hard, but at the same time it was awesome. It was super humid with occasional sprinkles and it felt so good to come home sweaty, feeling like I’d really worked my body.
Monday night, my foot swelled again. It didn’t hurt much, unless I pressed on the swelling (I know, so don’t press on it). But it concerns me that it’s still swelling, especially after taking 5 days off.
Tuesday it felt fine and there was no swelling. I took the day off running, planning to get to the gym. I ended up taking a nap instead. (Just for the record, I’m not a napper.)
I need to get things back on track. All of my behaviors are pointing to me heading to my unhappy place. I don’t know if I’m going to try running or if I’m going to the gym, but I have an hour and a half between kid drop off and a phone meeting and SOME form of exercise will happen. Otherwise, I’m pretty sure my kids are going to get the locks changed…