I love to run. Even a bad run helps me stay sane and be a better parent. If I only have 3-4 miles on the schedule (in my head – not officially training for anything), I have no problem getting out there. As soon as a run gets any longer than that, my little brain starts freaking out.
It’s such a long way!
It’s cold out!
I’m not going to be able to do it!
What if my feet hurt? (This is actually legit. I’m having some issues with my toes.)
What if I need to go to the bathroom?
I drag my feet and don’t want to go. Finally, I make myself head out to run, but I tell myself I only have to do 3 miles. If I feel good at the end, I can do more. I remind myself I can go as slow as I want and that I don’t have to push myself.
And then I do my run. Most of the time I end up hitting my goal pace and distance, so it’s obviously all in my head.
Yesterday I ran 8 amazing miles. I felt fabulous right up to about 7.5. I averaged 10:22, which felt really comfortable (but is faster than most training guides recommend). I went out to do 6 and just kept going. But I know when I head out for 9 this coming Wednesday, I’ll have to go through the whole mental lack of confidence again.
I don’t remember being like this for either of my marathons. How on earth do I get mentally strong again?