I’m not a “keeping up with the Joneses” kind of girl. Anyone who knows me IRL knows that. I tend to zig when others zag. Beer Geek is even more like that.
We live in a small house because we chose location over size. And, while a master bath or a stove that’s not older than me might be nice, I don’t really need much more than what we have (thankfully beer is a relatively cheap luxury item). I have a masters degree and had a very successful career before kids. I could easily get back into that, but have found that my “drive” to succeed in that way is gone. Now I want to do something that I enjoy, on my own schedule, the way I want to do it. When I ponder winning the lottery (which I never will since I’d never actually enter the lottery LOL), the only big exciting thing I want is to travel more. The rest of my thoughts go to things like paying off the mortgage, saving for the kids for college, etc. (ok, upgrading my kitchen does come to mind).
I’m the same way when it comes to parenting. I’m a big believer in doing what works for your family. I’ve done some out of the mainstream things – home birth, extended nursing, co-sleeping, to name a few. I’ll share my opinions if asked, but I’m not going to be telling you what you should do. If something works for your family and everyone is happy, healthy, and safe, who am I to judge?
I used to be that way when it came to running. I started running for my mental and physical health. I didn’t care about how fast I was or how far I went. I just cared that I could be a good mom and my jeans fit.
Lately, I’ve found myself reading blogs and thinking “wow, she ran fast, I need to do more speedwork”. Or “hey, she can run x miles per week, why am I not putting in that kind of mileage?” Or “I should be training for a marathon”.
Never mind that a)I will never be a fast girl, b) I’ve never enjoyed the miles after about mile 15, and c) I hate running in hot weather. I just feel like I need to be doing more and doing it faster because “everyone else” is.
I think that the biggest problem right now is that I have no running goals. I have a lot going on outside of running, so I had decided to let running take a bit of a back seat. That’s not working for me. Apparently I need a plan and something to work towards (or at least something to rebel against occasionally LOL). So, I think it’s time to go back to the drawing board and figure out where *I* want to go right now. And to step away from the lure of the marathon. Because, while there will be a time to go for that sub 4:30 goal, that time is not now.