Notice that I did not say body image. One of the beautiful things about getting older is that I’m generally quite comfortable with my appearance and don’t really give a f$%^ what others think.
What I’m struggling with are some of the changes that are going on in my body. Some I didn’t expect this early, some I never expected at all.
Who turned the heat up??? I haven’t started getting hot flashes during the day yet, but some nights I wake up way overheated. And it’s not a “flash”. It can take me quite a while to cool down. I don’t mind it too much in the winter when any extra warmth is a good thing, but I’m pretty sure I’d freeze my family out if I put the thermostat where I’d like it this summer.
My cup floweth over. I’m struggling a little bit with weight gain and most of it has gone to my boobs and thighs. I’ve never really had this much cleavage since I got past the pregnancy and breast feeding days. Pretty soon I may need to actually invest in running bras that aren’t the simple “smash ’em flat” types from Target and Old Navy.
Everything hurts and I’m dying. OK, I’m happy that I’m not actually injured, but on most runs, the aches and pains are there, whispering at me. No one part hurts regularly. It’s more like every part of my body needs to put in a quick complaint about the fact that I’m running. I’ve been spending way more time with my foam roller and I actually warm up before I run now, something I NEVER did in my 30s.
Is it naptime yet? I haven’t napped regularly since college. Lately, my body has been craving a little shut eye mid day. Some days I also find myself dozing on the couch at 7pm. Who is this person who needs more sleep than the 6-7 hours I’ve been getting for the last 40 some years? I was really good at getting to bed at a reasonable time for a while, but I’ve been slacking. (And the bonus of summer is I don’t have to get up until 7am unless I’m running a long run.)
Is it my day off yet? I have always been really good at juggling a lot of things. In fact, I generally thrive on chaos and a too long to do list. Lately, I find myself needing to make more time for relaxation or I get hit with wicked insomnia or anxiety dreams. Thankfully, I have the flexibility in my life to step back a bit when I need to. I’m also learning to prioritize the things that matter to me. I’ve always tried to keep margins, but now I really need them.
Thankfully, I’m generally healthy and happy and we are fully into summer break now, which is a much less scheduled time in our family. I am moving along on my 50K training despite not being a summer runner. (Will I never learn???) I’m up to 14 miles, with 16 miles on the plan for this week. Since my only goal is to not get picked up by the bus, I’m trying to go easy on myself and train smart. All in all, life is pretty good and I’m happy to be running strong as I get closer and closer to the big 5-0.