Today I ran a slow three miles on the treadmill. I ran there for two reasons: a threatening rain storm and because I really wanted to stay slow and I’ve been sucking at that lately. It was a nice 30 minute run. I worked up a good sweat because the basement was warm, but didn’t get my heart rate too high or wear out my legs.
The half marathon is on Sunday. I can’t wait until it’s over. I’m having a bit of a crisis of confidence about running that distance at a decent speed. I’m not sure why – I did just run a 10 mile race at the pace I want to run. I keep telling myself that I can just run at a nice pace and enjoy myself, but I’m not sure I can accomplish that. Guess we’ll see.
As soon as the race is over, I’m taking a step back. I’ve been pushing hard since January and running has become something I have to do, rather than something I want to do. I’m going to back off on my mileage goals and just try to be active at least 5 days a week. If that means taking the kids to the park and playing soccer or walking with friends or whatever, that’s what I’m going to do. I need to get back to the point of running for my mental health instead of running just to improve my speed or my stamina. Nothing new here, I go through this periodically, usually when I’ve been pushing myself for a race. This is my last “goal” race until October, so if I slack off a bit, it won’t affect any new PRs. ;o)
I’ve been succeeding at the drinking more water and eating healthier, but my more sleep goal has been totally undermined by my darling children. I’ve gone to bed earlier, but they’ve woken up more often. Not sure what’s going on. Shoo normally sleeps through the night, so I figure he’s either coming down with something or about to hit a developmental milestone. Jones has always been an awful sleeper, so his issues are nothing new, sigh. He’ll sleep when he’s a teenager, right? Even so, I haven’t had afternoon caffeine in two days, woot. I’m feeling a little bit better, not quite so completely on edge, but I still have a ways to go.
Now if we could just get a decent amount of sun around here…