Edited to add: this is the post that should have come out on Thursday. I’ve decided to let it go without editing any of the actual content…
1. Yesterday I got an offer to help coach a marathon training group. I jumped on it and was all excited that I was “living the dream.” Then reality hit. I woke up in the middle of the night with an anxiety attack. When I sat down and looked at a calendar and realized just how much time it was going to take away from everything else and how little time I actually had, I turned it down. My “career goal” right now is to do work that fulfills me AND allows me to keep the boys as my priority. If I really wanted to be away from them for four hours on a Saturday, I’d train for my own marathon. Or go to a spa.
2. This has been a rough week. As Robin so aptly put it, my living room looks like I belong on Hoarders: Buried Alive. The noise, dust, and chaos has me kind of on edge. I don’t generally think of myself as having sensory issues, but holy cow am I having a hard time functioning this week. And it certainly doesn’t help that my treadmill is standing on end under plastic in the dusty basement.
3. The runs I’ve managed this week have gone well for the most part. I’ve been trying to listen to my body and not push the mileage or the speed. I’m just worn out from everything and I’m worried that I’ll ignore signs that my body is giving me. Today, for some reason, I just really wanted to run in shoes. Not sure why, but it was like my body was craving running shoes like I craved soup when I was pregnant with Jones. Made no sense, but I compromised and ran in my Merrells and that worked for me. It was a great run until the 2.75 mile mark when my stomach turned on me. Gotta remember that running after lunch is never the best time for me to run. ;o)
Bonus: Like many of the running blogs I read, yesterday I found out I was nominated as one of the Top 25 Health and Fitness Mom blogs over at Circle of Moms. I am incredibly flattered that anyone thought I deserved to be on that list. Knowing I’ve inspired even one mom to take care of herself and be fit makes me happy. Even better, you aren’t limited to voting for just one mom. I mean, obviously, *I* think *I’m* awesome, but I love that I could vote for myself and some of the awesome mom bloggers who are part of my life. Want to vote? Go to Circle of Moms. Vote for all the mom bloggers you know and love. (And do it again, 24 hours later…)
Too funny MCM. I was asked to be a coach on a marathon training team this year too, but when I looked at it I realized, I wasn't 100% sure I could make it happen with school & my own marathon goals. Selfish? or Realistic? Ah well, either way, I was a little sad when I turned it down, even though I know I did the right thing.(yeah, the blogger outage really messed me up too)
youknowI voted. FOR SURE.
I like your new (expanded) blog title – very fitting!Good luck with the chaos at home. I couldn't handle it! Just watching hoarders gives me anxiety. ;)Have a great weekend!!P.S. I voted for ya!
I hate running after lunch also. Ick.*Voted!*
I think it's awesome that you really took the time to think about the committment it would take to do the training thing and then turned it down. Alot of people would have gone ahead and done it but there heart wouldn't have been in it.
I think you made the right choice! Sounds like you know where your priorties are.
I won't take up an offer that like that myself. It is hard enough and takes enough time to get just myself race ready. I'll go voting now!
I really feel for you with your renovations. It's such an upheaval! Just keep telling yourself it'll be worth it in the end.
Time with your kids is priority. I think you made a good choice and your reasoning is spot on!