Before we had kids, I had a challenging job and a long commute. If I wanted to work out on a weekday, I had to do it during lunch. Thankfully, the gym was on the same floor as my office and I could schedule my day so that I didn’t have many afternoon meetings (I’m very fair and get quite red in the face when I run. People get concerned if they see me after the gym LOL). On the weekends, I’d run and Beer Geek and I were always out hiking or walking around DC or just generally active. At the time, I thought I was seriously lacking in free time to get all the things around the house done. (I was obviously crazy).
Enter kids. I worked part-time until Jones was three. I could usually manage to squeeze in a work out on the days I worked and a run on the weekends. Various issues converged and I decided to “temporarily” become a stay at home mom. By my original deadline of one year, Shoo’s arrival was imminent. Three more years later and I’m still at home.
Today I saw a full time job opening. In my career field. Minutes (as in I could walk) from my house. That’s a perfect fit for my skills and work history. That I would have a better than good chance of getting. And I likely won’t be applying.
I could say it’s better for MY kids for me not to work (most of the time I do believe this). I could say it’s better for Beer Geek’s career for me to be able to take care of a lot of things, so he doesn’t have to miss work for sick kids and such. I could say it’s too difficult to find quality care for Shoo (which isn’t really far from the truth around here). I could say a lot of things.
But the thing that’s tipping the scale for me? Running. Right now running doesn’t take time away from family time or making dinner or writing on my blog or really much of anything else. It fits neatly into the schedule we have (now that I’m no longer doing 20 mile runs LOL). I’m sure I could go back to squeezing it in, but I think I’d spend a lot more time feeling like I was at risk of dropping all the balls I have in the air.
I’m not sure if this means I’ve found a good balance or just that I’m selfish.