I live in a rather, umm, competitive area. I’m surrounded by driven personalities. Our once quaint little neighborhood filled with Sears bungalows and small brick colonials is changing over to HUGE houses. Additions are so big you can barely find the old house. Infill houses have five or more bedrooms and often as many baths. I’ll admit that sometimes I get a little house envy. (Or honestly mostly master bath envy because we don’t have one of those.)
And then I step back and remind myself that we’ve made choices based on OUR values and OUR priorities. I’m not saying that our choices are better than anyone else’s, just that they are what are important to us. And all choices have consequences, often both negative and positive. Example: I work part-time on a very flexible schedule. Positive consequence? Plenty of time to run. Negative consequence? Did I mention the lack of master bathroom? When I sit down and think of the positive and negatives of the choices we’ve made, I always come to the conclusion that we’ve made the right choices for us. I just have to remind myself of that.
I’m having the same issues with running.
I keep looking at my mileage and thinking “Wow, look at how many miles I’m running.” Then I look at some other blogs and think, “Gosh, I should run more.” “I should do more speedwork.” “I should run 2013 miles in 2013.” “I need to set loftier goals”. Suddenly, I’m not thinking about what my values are or my goals with running, but rather trying to keep up with the “Joneses”.
So, today, I’m reminding myself of why *I* run and what *my* goals are.
- To keep depression at bay, especially in the winter when it’s gray and in the summer when I hate how hot it is.
- To stay fit and healthy and live not just a long life, but a life where I’m active right up until the end.
- To challenge myself, but only up to the point where I’m still enjoying myself.
- To have something that is just for me, when I spend most of my time giving to others in our family.
- And if I’m truly being honest, to allow me to eat the occasional treat and drink a couple of beers every weekend and still be the same size I was before I had kids.
You’ll notice that none of these goals talk about races or PRs or mileage. That’s because when it really comes down to it, those aren’t what’s important to me. And I need to remember that as I walk the fine line of training for the 5 halves versus adding mileage just to hit arbitrary marks.
I do still want that master bathroom someday though.
Do you have to sit down and remind yourself of your values and why you make the choices to do what you do?