RunningLaur once again hosted a virtual race and, in my usual jump on the bandwagon fashion, I decided to participate. Lately, after I sign up for a race, I have more than a few moments of buyer’s remorse. This race was no different. I’ve had so much going on lately, that I just haven’t felt like running. My stress level has been at an extremely high level.
But, like a “real” race, once I’ve committed, I always manage to get out there and do it. So, Tuesday after I dropped Shoo at preschool, I hit the road. I didn’t want to do it, but I didn’t want to let you all down. The first three miles were great – 9:28, 8:41, 8:50. And then, well, I needed the bathroom. Badly. I was running in our neighborhood, so I could have stopped at home, but with my motivation as low as it has been lately, I was pretty sure my five miler would become a 5K if I stopped. So, I stuck it out and ended up finishing in 46:26. Certainly not my best time ever, but acceptable.
Thanks RunningLaur for giving me the motivation to actually get out there and run. Do I get an award for “Least in the mood, but did it anyways?”
In other news, life has continued to pound on me a bit. I feel like I’m meeting myself coming and going with all that I have going on. I ran a horrid 3 mile run yesterday that I thought was a lack of food (I had two cheese sticks for breakfast and didn’t run until 10:30) and sleep (Jones has a cold and he yells in his sleep when he’s sick). Turns out I was coming down with the cold.
Today I met with Jones’ teacher and a number of the specialists at his school. There’s something about verbalizing all of your worries about your child that just rips your heart wide open. I was teary eyed for much of the meeting and then came home and cried to my mommy on the phone. Thankfully, we were able to come up with a concrete plan, some of which can be put in place immediately. And I was happy to find out that academically, he’s doing just fine, so we can really just focus on helping him with his anxiety and sensitivity. We have an amazing school and for the third year in a row, he’s got an amazing teacher who really wants to help make sure he succeeds.
Between the cold and the exhaustion from the meeting, I skipped my run this evening. I just needed a break. Somehow though, I feel like a weight has been lifted and my stress level has dropped considerably. Hopefully, this and the 10K race on Saturday will be just what I need to find my way back to running as something I do because I want to, rather than just one more thing to cross off the “To Do” list.
You sure do get a special award – you're a trooper for still getting out there and doing it. I'm glad you have such great resources around your kids. Hope you can get a little time to yourself and enjoy the 10k this weekend. Thanks again for racing!
Awesome job on your race, despite all that's going on! I just try to remember that every stress saturated phase does eventually pass, so hang in there!
Great job on the race!I hope your stress lightens soon.
Nice job on the race! You're so speedy!I can only imagine how difficult it would be to discuss your child with teachers and administrators. I'd be teary too! Glad you could come up with a concrete plan though!
I'm sorry you're so busy and stressed, I hope things calm down for you soon. Great job doing your virtual race, I wound up just walking the thing!
GREAT job getting out there! You have a lot going on, so that definitely deserves an award.
Yeah, I hear you on the kid front. Ian is like the photo-negative of Jones, in that, socially, he does fine at school, but academically? Not really motivated. It's ironic that this is something that preys on my mind as much as it does, because I myself did not become academically motivated until 12th grade – and that was only because I knew if I didn't get into college, I'd have to get a job.Even then, stupid as I was, I knew this much:Work sucks.Good luck with your race tomorrow! (Would a Punch in Teh Face a la Teh Marcy help motivate you?)
Way to get out there and get the five miler done! You have a lot going on – hope the stress eases up soon.By the way, my friend's little girl had similar problems when she first started school. It was a rough year, but they really worked with the school and she is in 2nd grade now and loving it . . .
wow, hope things get easier for you soon, but it sounds like you're doing everything right. hang in there.
Good job getting out there and running.I hope things calm down for you soon.
Way to get it done! Hang in there with life. It'll get better. :o)
Great work on the 5miler, and YAY for awesome teachers and school staff!! So glad you're seeing some concrete solutions to this, and that you're encouraged.Hope you get better soon – store up some energy for that 10k 🙂
I'm glad I'm not the only driven to tears meeting with a kid's teacher. These teachers must think I'm loony tunes.Hope everything calms down for you soon. Great work getting your fall fiver in!
Great job on your race. I hope your life calms down soon.
Good job on the 5 miler, and make sure you take some time to relax and for yourself!